18 years

18 years in this world.

this is a shoutout to everyone that made my existence made known to myself. To the peeps that wished me be it in their hearts or thru actions. i thank you all.

special thanks to drew, jon, yee ler, dryck , ma parents, sis , hui yi, ee teng, hui lu, mel win, eugene, jason , joe, and many more others. jin you were late.as usual =)

18 years. this past few days have been quite hell-ish . ultimate down moments of life. what have i achived in the past 18 years of my life.nothing much. no medals to show for, no certificates, no money, no looks , no skills, no cool collector items, no great funny personality to account for. basically. it all was a load of shit. i do not feel proud of myself. my concious is filled with guilt and regret. for not utilizing all the time i have wisely. now, here i am.

so many habits i want to get rid off. so many things i want to change.I used to wish i was someone else, then I'd dream away the day. how i wished to be someone else. how i wish to not be me. many of you have heard me uttered this lines for sure.

it all comes to now. sad it is. "A birthday is just the first day of another 365-day journey around the sun. "

Is life ever gonna kickstart for me? 18 years and counting. "It is sad how one dark moment can live forever burned in the back of ones mind." The past will always haunt me.
I hope for a better future.