My grandma...

She's gone.. forever. Its not like the movies where you get to see her before she goes. hear her last words. I've been to the hospital so many times. but i did not go in to see her. mom says she'll cry whenever someone visits her. the last time i visited. she cried. and,that was the last time.

Yesterday, i got the news. i don't know how to feel. i so freaking wanted to cry. i went to futsal. i drove like a madmen. but luckily dryck and yee ler was there. if not i would've wrecked maself. i played futsal. i ran like there was no tomorrow. then i came out, sat there and just thought of every single shit that happened. i freaking cried. no one knew , i was sweating and at the same time i let my tears flow freely.

i went back yesterday. my mom was strong as ever. once i stepped in and look at the coffin where she layed. i totally freaked again. my grandpa was around. i could see the sadness in his face. he was there in the hospital all along.

i'll never see my grandma again..